Dreaming

Somewhere in the past few years of my life I have lost my desire to dream and if you know me that is part of my core.  I don't know if part of it is growing up or the environment that I am part of.  Whatever it is I have lost my desire to dream of the days that are ahead.  I want that back.  I also want the part of me that is in touch with my emotional side.  I have cut off myself from really allowing myself to feel the pain of things and just have got defensive.  I am sick of feeling trapped but that is exactly what I feel.  I need to dream again.  What could be.  Part of the reason that I have stopped dreaming is that I have a lot on my plate and I just haven't given myself time to dream.  I need to feel fresh again.  I need feel connected again. I feel so disconnected and distracted.  I just want to focus on what God has for me.  I want to dream of how can I best serve him. I guess I feel like I am spinning my wheels in life.