Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Thursday, May 12, 2011
Weak to be strong
This morning I am wrestling with the idea that God is strong when I am weak. How often do I spend all my time and energy relying on myself and not of God. However do I think my way is better than Gods? Yes I am a believer and yes I try to be transformed by Christ but how often do I not allow God to work? Why is it so scary to be broken before God? Why can't I allow God to put my broken pieces back together in Him rather than try to hold them together myself.
Recently I was asked to write a letter of encouragement and tell about a great memory I shared with this person. I realized through that process that I have so much hurt and resentment under the surface for this person. I didn't have good things to say because I have never really allowed God to completely heal me. Every time I have got close to healing and be freed of the bitterness I have chose to hold the grudge. I believe the reason is that my grudge gives me the upper hand. They have never really apologized or taken any responsibility for the pain they caused in my life and I think for me forgiving them means that I let them off scott free. Some of the situations I have been through in life I don't want to let this person off scott free. I want them to own up to what they did in my life. I want them to take responsibility. Can I be broken and weak enough to leave this at the foot of the cross? Jesus came he lived a perfect life, he died on the cross and rose from the grave for me... Can I trust Jesus the one I call my Lord and Savior enough to know that there will be consequences or justice for what has happened? Can I forgive even if there isn't consequences or justice? Is is ok to be weak in order that God can be strong? The self talk in my head just said Forgive as you have been forgiven. Revive my heart for you Lord, make straight my path in order that I may walk the narrow path. Purify me from sin, and set my heart a blaze for you. Lord be my all! I am hopeful to continue to grow in my love, dependence, and brokenness for you.
Love your son who just wants to bring honor to your name.
Recently I was asked to write a letter of encouragement and tell about a great memory I shared with this person. I realized through that process that I have so much hurt and resentment under the surface for this person. I didn't have good things to say because I have never really allowed God to completely heal me. Every time I have got close to healing and be freed of the bitterness I have chose to hold the grudge. I believe the reason is that my grudge gives me the upper hand. They have never really apologized or taken any responsibility for the pain they caused in my life and I think for me forgiving them means that I let them off scott free. Some of the situations I have been through in life I don't want to let this person off scott free. I want them to own up to what they did in my life. I want them to take responsibility. Can I be broken and weak enough to leave this at the foot of the cross? Jesus came he lived a perfect life, he died on the cross and rose from the grave for me... Can I trust Jesus the one I call my Lord and Savior enough to know that there will be consequences or justice for what has happened? Can I forgive even if there isn't consequences or justice? Is is ok to be weak in order that God can be strong? The self talk in my head just said Forgive as you have been forgiven. Revive my heart for you Lord, make straight my path in order that I may walk the narrow path. Purify me from sin, and set my heart a blaze for you. Lord be my all! I am hopeful to continue to grow in my love, dependence, and brokenness for you.
Love your son who just wants to bring honor to your name.
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